Where to begin? That’s always a difficult question when it comes to writing. Let’s begin with now and I’ll fill in the details if they ever become necessary. Allow me to answer two questions, “Who I am” and “Why I’m Writing”.
Who I Am
It is difficult to describe anyone, let alone yourself, in a single paragraph, so let’s touch on the highlights. My name is Benjamin Pack. I’m a software engineer by trade, a critical thinker by upbringing, a reluctant philosopher by chance, and a ruthless pragmatist by choice. The Myers-Briggs has me pegged solidly as an INTJ and, while I don’t think psychology has all the answers, I think it got that one dead on. I’ve been told by people I trust that I’m nonconventional (odd), honest (lacking restraint or tact), self-confident (arrogant), rational (without empathy), and possess a keen wit (sarcastic). Obviously, throwing out a few adjectives doesn’t provide a very clear picture, but I hope it’s enough to get started and that my writing will tell you more about me as we go.
Why I’m Writing
I’m not building this site and writing these entries to become a successful blogger, nor am I doing it to earn money, create a tribe, spread a world-view, build a brand or gather a fan base. Admittedly, I wouldn’t be opposed to some of those outcomes, but that’s not why I’m doing this, and truth be told that wouldn’t be enough to keep me doing it. To Get Better I’m a decent writer, but I know I can write better. Likewise, I’m a decent software developer, but I know I can design smarter and write code better and faster than I do now. For me, this is an opportunity to be better [1]. This site is where I plan to practice, maybe show what I’m capable of and to track how (and if) I’m improving. To me, being good at something you’re passsionate about means always wanting and striving to be better.
Because It’s There
We find voids of raw potential intimidating. Be it a blank page, a blank screen, a blank source file, or a blank canvas – the artist stares at pure potential and the enormity of it all stares back. It’s also a challenge. ”Here it is,” the universe says. “Do your best.” How could someone not answer such a challenge?
Because I Can
Until recently, I’ve been working two jobs to make ends meet. Forty hours a week at my day job and 20+ at night. I did that day in and day out for more than two years. There wasn’t time to do much of anything other than work, sleep and spend what little time I had left with my family. Now, I have time and a deeper appreciation of what it means to have time. I’m using it to do this because I can.
Because I Can’t Do Otherwise
I can’t speak for everyone on this, but there’s something inside me that demands more. I refuse to stop learning, improving, dreaming or doing. I possess drive and determination that is relentless and I have to do something with it. At some point, I intend to pursue a Master’s degree. Until then, I have this site because I believe that the intrinsic motivation, effort and opportunity for fulfillment that creativity brings are all keys to that nebulous concept called happiness.
To Make a Dent
For years I’ve been manufacturing “deliverables” for my company. It pays the bills and I enjoy doing it to a point, but I want to do more. I want to create something beyond the infinitesimal curve my mass creates in space-time and the handful of applications a few people at my company use to do their job and think nothing further about. Here, I can do that. I can add something potentially worthwhile to the sum total of human existence. I don’t claim that it will be great or earth-shattering, but if it’s enough to add something to someone’s day, or to spark a thought someone wouldn’t have had otherwise, or see a code snippet that moves them a little more in the direction of better, or provide an application that people find useful, or any number of small moves toward an objectively better world, then I’ve accomplished more than I could in a lifetime of nine-to-five. I’ve created art, and art makes a dent in the universe [2].
[1] Case in point – I’m writing this using the classic power editor ‘vi’ because while I’m competent with it, I’d rather be capable of using it to accomplish feats of editing wizardry.
[2] With thanks to the authors of Rework, Jason Fried and David Heinemeier Hansson, for the eloquent phrase ‘dent in the universe’.
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Introductions
Where to begin? That’s always a difficult question when it comes to writing. Let’s begin with now and I’ll fill in the details if they ever become necessary. Allow me to answer two questions, “Who I am” and “Why I’m Writing”.
Who I Am
It is difficult to describe anyone, let alone yourself, in a single paragraph, so let’s touch on the highlights. My name is Benjamin Pack. I’m a software engineer by trade, a critical thinker by upbringing, a reluctant philosopher by chance, and a ruthless pragmatist by choice. The Myers-Briggs has me pegged solidly as an INTJ and, while I don’t think psychology has all the answers, I think it got that one dead on. I’ve been told by people I trust that I’m nonconventional (odd), honest (lacking restraint or tact), self-confident (arrogant), rational (without empathy), and possess a keen wit (sarcastic). Obviously, throwing out a few adjectives doesn’t provide a very clear picture, but I hope it’s enough to get started and that my writing will tell you more about me as we go.
Why I’m Writing
I’m not building this site and writing these entries to become a successful blogger, nor am I doing it to earn money, create a tribe, spread a world-view, build a brand or gather a fan base. Admittedly, I wouldn’t be opposed to some of those outcomes, but that’s not why I’m doing this, and truth be told that wouldn’t be enough to keep me doing it. To Get Better I’m a decent writer, but I know I can write better. Likewise, I’m a decent software developer, but I know I can design smarter and write code better and faster than I do now. For me, this is an opportunity to be better [1]. This site is where I plan to practice, maybe show what I’m capable of and to track how (and if) I’m improving. To me, being good at something you’re passsionate about means always wanting and striving to be better.
Because It’s There
We find voids of raw potential intimidating. Be it a blank page, a blank screen, a blank source file, or a blank canvas – the artist stares at pure potential and the enormity of it all stares back. It’s also a challenge. ”Here it is,” the universe says. “Do your best.” How could someone not answer such a challenge?
Because I Can
Until recently, I’ve been working two jobs to make ends meet. Forty hours a week at my day job and 20+ at night. I did that day in and day out for more than two years. There wasn’t time to do much of anything other than work, sleep and spend what little time I had left with my family. Now, I have time and a deeper appreciation of what it means to have time. I’m using it to do this because I can.
Because I Can’t Do Otherwise
I can’t speak for everyone on this, but there’s something inside me that demands more. I refuse to stop learning, improving, dreaming or doing. I possess drive and determination that is relentless and I have to do something with it. At some point, I intend to pursue a Master’s degree. Until then, I have this site because I believe that the intrinsic motivation, effort and opportunity for fulfillment that creativity brings are all keys to that nebulous concept called happiness.
To Make a Dent
For years I’ve been manufacturing “deliverables” for my company. It pays the bills and I enjoy doing it to a point, but I want to do more. I want to create something beyond the infinitesimal curve my mass creates in space-time and the handful of applications a few people at my company use to do their job and think nothing further about. Here, I can do that. I can add something potentially worthwhile to the sum total of human existence. I don’t claim that it will be great or earth-shattering, but if it’s enough to add something to someone’s day, or to spark a thought someone wouldn’t have had otherwise, or see a code snippet that moves them a little more in the direction of better, or provide an application that people find useful, or any number of small moves toward an objectively better world, then I’ve accomplished more than I could in a lifetime of nine-to-five. I’ve created art, and art makes a dent in the universe [2].
[1] Case in point – I’m writing this using the classic power editor ‘vi’ because while I’m competent with it, I’d rather be capable of using it to accomplish feats of editing wizardry.
[2] With thanks to the authors of Rework, Jason Fried and David Heinemeier Hansson, for the eloquent phrase ‘dent in the universe’.